The Supposed Feelings

Trying to find the words
Words to express
How I feel every time
You pass my mind
Unexpectedly pleasant wave of heat
When it is early and the floor is freezing
Shivers release into my body
When I recall your voice
A melodic song that seeps into my mind
Sedation, a lullaby that could put me asleep
How I feel every time I am around you
A thrill, a challenge
The courage to ride that rollercoaster
Or jump off a cliff into the water crashing
How I feel about your gaze
A book, inviting yet full of mystery
So many thoughts and possibilities lie ahead in that plot
You lure me in like wind chimes in the wind
You make feel like
I have been wrapped in a warm freshly dried blanket
I could lay asleep in it
Sinking down and down
So dreamy, a rejuvenating deep sleep
It is hard to wake up
If I do, I lazily lay about
Until the alarm clock beeps it ravenous sounds
I condemn my logic for awakening from the dream
But in the end it is a supposed feeling
This I have learned with any euphoric state-of-mind
It fades and can be thrown its harsh and sorrowful bones
Or perhaps a bone of independence
Or a bone of sensibility
Maybe the euphoria fades, but contentment can be found
But fear not, euphoria
It is meant to be a treasure
Cherished, a buffer for a forming bond
A reminder of the falling times spent together
Not a necessity or addiction
But a reflection of emotion, connection, of forming love

By: Amara Van Orden