Resistance to the Heeding II

Coming to the surface

Crawling under my skin

Penetrating the barriers of my mind

Must resist the heeding

Irrationality

Emotions rather not revisit

These hauntings

Only deny their existence

Clouting judgment

Distractions and temptations

Must resist the heeding

Sufficiently content and challenged

With other less fanciful more valid occupations

Sticking to my foolproof plan

Not to happenstance

Yes, I must resist the heeding

Goosebumps, fade away

Heart flutterings, go away

Wonderments of implausible possibilities

Replace them with the brutal truth

Create sweet memories

Rather than conjure painful memories

Summon memories of independence and strength

Rather than those of helplessness, desperation

Stimulate intellectually

Rather than emotionally

Yes, I am mastering the art

Of resisting the heeding

Of intellectualizing

Separating fact from fiction

And I write it all away

Channel these whimsical frenzies

Into the rationalities of my life

Diffuse the resistance

And set a float my positive nature, full potentiality

Lanterns floating peacefully in the night

Glowing vibrantly under stunning cherry blossom trees

Down a calm stream

Let the heedings ignite motivations

Rather than langour

Squander my illusive expectations

Go beyond the easy stream

To free flowing rivers of rage and stillness

Overcome the vulnerabilities

Recognize and seize resistance

These heedings only yearnings

Of something much grander, greater

More tangible than my selfish misery or blindness

A powerful force that makes a difference

In everyday human life

These heedings only guiding lights

Of uncharted places of exploration and discovery

Blossoming springs of renew

Reaching into the depths of my expanding soul

To genuinely inspire, ablaze

Enough to make me move

Enough to find me in the night

To prevent sinking in the mud or unknown waters

By: Amara Van Orden

"Freedom is man's capacity to take a hand in his own development. It is our capacity to mold ourselves."

--Rollo May


"...the individual is defined only by his relationship to the world and to other individuals; he exists only by transcending himself, and his freedom can be achieved only through the freedom of others. He justifies his existence by a movement which, like freedom, springs from his heart but which leads outside of himself."
    -- Simone de Beauvoir, 1948, The Ethics Of Ambiguity, p. 156


"To love means to open ourselves to the negative as well as the positive - to grief, sorrow, and disappointment as well as to joy, fulfillment, and an intensity of consciousness we did not know was possible before." --Rollo May